Use me

I have no idea what I am doing in life. My close friends, well, you know this to well. One thing that I know in my life for certain... I am returning to Hogar De Esperanza. I leave the states on 9/17./08. I am terrified and in wonder that God is setting this up.

The first night I spent in Peru, durring my devotional time God hit me with thoughts on returning to serve there for a time. I pushed it away for a little while assuming it was my own foolish thought. However, when I returned home I had an ache in my heart that I could not shake. I missed the children and I wanted to see God at work in Peru through all the activities and programs he has provided for them. I wanted to help.

Some people thought and still do think I am being foolish and should finish college first. When there is a fire you don't wait for it to pass.

College is great, I know the people I love want the best for me. Want more for me. I don't want to sit in an office. I want to get my hands dirty. Life really needs to be less about making money and more about running with God. I sometimes have a hard time hearing God's plans above my own. This time however, I asked for a sign. Sounds silly, I know. I never do this but God provides. Tickets to Peru have been running about 8-1,000. This afternoon I found a roundtrip for $368.- luck? There is no such thing.

I am scared to leave my family and loved ones. Distance and time are two of my fears and I am about to combine them. I have faith in God that this is his will for me and he will provide. I know there will be moments that I wonder what I have done, but there will also be moments when I can see our Lord's face in that of a child who yearns for love and has so much love to give.

Peru hear I come.

9/08-3/09